I don’t even know what to say.

I’m hurt, just really hurt. I gave him everything and there’s nothing left inside me. I walk around like fucking zombie. I was getting better, and then something happens and I go back to square one. I step forward, then take three steps back. It doesn’t help when he randomly texts me every week. I love him, I still love him. I don’t think I will be with another guy for a very long time. The only good thing that came out of this is that I found out I’m extremely un-happy with my life. People say things happen for a reason, I’m still waiting for that reason. Why would someone need to go through this much pain? I may of put myself through it, but I’m a firm believer in you don’t know what it will be like unless you try, so it will either be something beautiful or something painful.